| Guys... I have to tell you I have no idea what I'm doing anymore.
I have decided to leave 30 Cents Sharp... it wasn't an easy decision and I'm still feeling bad for doing it. I wish I could be multiple people, but I can't. I don't want any hard feelings, I just needed to do something else. I still support the guys 100%, and if you are a guitar player wanting to join a ska band, then I'll teach you the stuff. I loved every minute of that band... it was fun as hell. But the time has come in my heart to move on and do something new. I felt very confined by the limitations of "ska" and what ska should be. I felt "cooped up" creatively. I was also tired of carrying the majority of the band's responsibility by myself. A lot of times it wasn't a group effort when it should have been. All of this was bearable, but then an opportunity has risen for me to do something else. More details on that later (when I actually know what's going on...) I would like to extend an appology to the guys if I hurt them, but it was something that I needed to do for me. I made sure to just stop doing it the very minute I felt that I needed to.
On another note... Meredith Dosher is supposedly moving in, I mean... all her stuff is here...but I'm still yet to see a single night of her staying here, or coming in the house without calling us first... basically... M-Do.... you suck!
Lastly... if you haven't been a complete asshole and/or bitch to me at some point within the last week, then you are only one of about three people.
EDIT:
This will be my last xanga post... so here is some lyrics to a 30 Cents Sharp song I wrote, it's called "Traitor"...
Check the mirror, how can you live with yourself
You put everyone down like no one else
And it's alright, cause it had to be
And you hold your head up high, like you're so happy
And no one even knows you're fake
I despise the lies and choices you make
Sometimes we stumble and fall
But you don't get that and it's all..
Wrong, Wrong, everything is so wrong
You've been everyone but yourself for too long.
Hey, Hey! Whatcha gonna do? Hey, Hey! Whatcha gonna say?
Hey, Hey! Where ya gonna go? I don't really care as long as you go away.
Look through the cracks and you will see
That you are through and so are we.
I don't understand the things you do
And don't get mad, cause it ain't just me.
I don't care what you do or what you're thinkin'.
It doesn't matter anyways, cuz this is the end.
Go!
This is the end, my friend
I wish we could start all over again
And do things differently the second time through
But it's too late for that
There's too many things we can't take back
This is the end of me and you
I don't care! I don't care!
I feel it in the air.
I've had enough, it's too much to bare.
With your indecencies, your hypocracies, and your incourtasies...
They make this all your fault
But maybe you're right, maybe I'm wrong
Maybe just maybe I'm nothing at all... |
